Ok, I explain what is this!
From early in my life, I always enjoyed a lot of artistic creations, mainly music and movies.
But now as I grow up, I feel like I should contribute in return to these worlds.
Sometimes I deeply think: "I can't just go to work everyday and doing nothing artistic, just doing a meaningless job. Not after all enjoyment that music and films brought me."
I think good artists have this ability to give some meaning to life. The guy who collect my garbage do that I have my trash got out of my house every week; that's ok. But he will probably never touch the heart and soul of anyone, he will always be just the guy next door; his job could be done by a robot, it would not change anything. But can a robot compose great music? I'm not talking about fame, but about giving some meaning to life beside just "living", or surviving. How can someone be happy by just "living", earning money for himself to buy things for his comfort and that's all; it lacks some generosity, not in terms of giving money to the poor, but giving something to the soul. There must be some kind of spiritual meaning of life that everyone is searching for. Can this be done only via artistic mediums, or there's some other way to find it?
A great artistic creation can touch a lot of people in a unique way that can change the life of some individuals. But it's not in terms of money: "when I won this million of dollar my life changed...". It's about soulful meaning : "since I discovered this album, it changed the way I see life, it gave my mind a meaning about life that I never thought possible, it opened my mind to new grounds". That's what I'm talking about. Our personal life seems a little pointless if we just listen to creations, without creating some; it's like a sharing process that needs contribution by everyone. Is it just a question of talent? Sometimes I think that everybody have something great to say and that talent is just a tool to express it; so if you don't have talent, you end up shut up. Is that so?
If there were no music, I often wonder how the hell I could be really happy. Liking an artist's work is one of the most meaningful thing I can think of.
So I feel like I should contribute in some way; all my life I just consumed music, but never played or created any. I feel guilty of not participating in what I enjoy the most. I know, I just have to actually begin to do it. I think will. My life can't just be about earning money and buying things and just listening to art. Maybe I will discover that I have no talent to express myself?
Am I alone to feel like this? Does anybody here feel ashamed of doing nothing in return to the musical world? Why is there so creative people who are not afraid of doing great things while others just do normal meaningless things?
I don't know exactly what's the point of this thread. It's just a thought that got unsolved.